Not yet.

For ten years, that was God’s answer. I prayed over and over again for God to show me the man he created to be my one-day husband               . Not yet.

I prayed I would become a mother one day               . Not yet.

Doctors couldn’t explain why, but for ten years it was physically not possible for me to have children               . Not yet.

Over and over I prayed               . Not yet.

AND YET – God used this time for his glory and drew me to himself. God honored the journey of a faithful heart turned towards him during a season of what felt like endless waiting as family and friends married, began having children, and started new phases of life. Jesus and I started our relationship in a new light and he became Lord of my life.

Enter in Ben. He found me.

One of the first things I learned about him was Ben loves kids and kids love Ben. This man is designed to be a father – one day.

A heart-crushing reality turned me upside down – not being able to guarantee him children. Accepting the reality that physical constraints would likely lead to adoption myself is one thing. It’s quite another “ask” having that conversation with the one you see as your future spouse.

Ben said “Yes” to me and took a chance, not knowing what the road ahead may entail. Children aren’t promised to anyone. Right now, we are overjoyed, eagerly anticipating sharing life with our little love.

Children truly are a gift from God however God joins them to our lives. God loves us so much that he provides a way for us to be received as his very own children:

[…] having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will […]

-Ephesians 1:5

God sets us apart. He chooses us. His will is that we would be adopted as his family.

As God’s children, there’s nothing that we can do to make him love us more. And nothing we have done can make him love us less. He’s the very best Father, never tiring of pursuing us.

He loves us as we are right in this very moment.

Do you know how very deeply you are loved? Simply because of whose you are?

I would love to spend some time with you if you have any doubt.